I wake up before my alarm every day
And for a moment I have forgotten that Ethan is gone.
In the dark… I have this moment of peace and the world is not totally fucked.
Then the moment is gone.
And sometimes in the quiet of the house
Not all the time. But sometimes…
And then the alarm goes off.
And the world is as it is…
And last year I lost my brother Paul.
And I think about what a life he had…
And how it seemed that something was taken from him…
And how I lost him when I was seven years old.
And how we all lost a bit of him here and there along the years.
And that morning moment before the world is totally fucked…
I hope you had those moments too.
I am thankful for those moments.